This post was originally written for The Vintage Honey Shop Blog.
As a wife and stay at home momma of 6 kiddos, life gets pretty crazy! I find myself getting so stressed sometimes..
There are days I look in a mirror and I'm such a hot mess, when was the last time I even took a shower? My wardrobe that was once filled with nice, sexy, "going out" clothes has now been replaced with leggings, camis and hoodies. I try to get makeup on so I don't look like a total "mombie" but my hair is almost always in a bun on the top of my head. And I haven't slept through the night in years. So I'm exhausted.
My days are filled with cooking, cleaning and laundry (oh the mountains of laundry). And I change more diapers and wipe more boogie noses then I can count!
Sometimes I cry to my husband because I'm so overwhelmed with all these little ones who need me every second of every day. Because I don't have any "me time". He's so amazing and he tries to understand, he'll even hold down the fort for a bit so I can get in the shower or have some time with my girlfriends.. but he doesn't really because he gets to escape every day and go to work! I know, I know it's work it's not actually a break.. but really, it is.
I long for adult interaction, for a break, for bedtime. And I feel like the worst mom in the world. Because everyone else seems to have it all together.. No one else seems to get this stressed out? I look on Facebook or Instagram at all these perfect homes, delicious looking dinners, mom's completely put together doing things with their kids. And I feel like a failure. But then I realize, my social media probably makes it seem like I have it all together too. Because we don't talk about the tough days! So then I work up the courage to call one of my friends and they get it, they understand, they're going through the same thing too. Because they have these days too! This is real life.
Don't get my wrong, my children are amazing! I love them more than anything. I am so blessed to have each and every one of them and I am so thankful to be their Mommy. Their smiles, their hugs and their kisses.. Just watching them grow makes it all worth it. And I wouldn't change it for the world.
One day they won't be little anymore, one day we'll miss these moments, one day we'll look back on our lives and laugh! But right now, it's a lot! Some days are so hard!
Just know, you're not alone. You're not the only one who feels this way. Talk to your friends, to your mom, heck come talk to me! And have that glass of wine! Because you deserve it!